So seriously, who are you?

I don't normally use the term hate, but it seems like a must today.

Guy: "Hey CC! Have me get that guy off the line! I'm in a hurry to buyyyy!"
CC: "Well I couldn't do much haha"
So that guy in front of him finally left, now he's standing next to me. He said to me,
Guy: "Get the hell outa here i needa buy!"

And who came here first?

And who did you ask for help at first?

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Back in the classroom, he was acting all cool like that had never happened. My another friend told me he jumped the queue when submitting something, and my friend couldn't submit it on time before the recess ends.

I don't know how that guy managed to switch from one personality to a totally different one in matter of minutes. No matter how, I hate that.

Hate is a very strong word, indeed.

But I couldn't think of another word so far.

Seriously, I don't like that. The first second you were asking me for help, the next an enemy to swear at, then back to a friend.

Is that what my existence is for? Just someone to swear at when one's angry, and then a "friend" when one's not? Oh - that's not a "friend", anyway.

I wish I could still call you a friend...

Still awake. Couldn't sleep.

Have been revisiting a few Facebook profiles, noticed people who used to be my closest friends are talking about things that I have no idea what they are.

So much has changed.

I realize I have, in fact, no best friend around me. I am not into any social groups, but rather a "wanderer" in class. No one finds me anymore. Nor do people reply to my calls.

This blog seems to be my only place to write down all my unhappiness. I have no one to share with.

Putting on one of my favorite songs, my heart sank even deeper. Yes the lyrics are quoted on top.

"I wish I could touch you again,
I wish I could still call you a friend,
I'd give anything."

I have treated them as my best friends, but for some reason ever since the new school year, relations worsened. What happened to me? I don't recall doing anything special.

P!nk - Who Knew

The Warmth and Happiness.

Today I received a message on Facebook.

"CC you don't have the stereotype of a top-class-er, and you always go along with the not-as-good-class-ers...

(message has been edited without leaving its original meaning)

At first when I saw the message I didn't know what it meant. I asked the person who posted it and he further elaborated and said I am very close to the not-as-good-class people, but other top-class people wouldn't usually talk to them.

If you ask me, I am never part of the "top-class stereotype". I never fall in "trend" with them. Their trend is just too far for me to reach.

I just enjoy talking to anyone. Perhaps this is my new year's resolution too: to be more social.

For once I feel a moment of warmth from this friend. Pretty true, knowing that you matter in someone's heart makes you happy. Thank you =]

(Then again, another not well organized blog post. All happened too quick but I couldn't help but to share it.)