Dedication.

For the past few days I have been returning to my weird habit of following Gaga's choreography. This time of her new song. I love following her choreography.

I attempted to learn the steps from 0:30 till 1:30 of the video. It wasn't easy, as they were pretty quick.

I continued for two nights and finally got through the basics of the whole choreography. I did feel relieved and happy. I wish I practice well enough to make a video on YouTube. Ha.

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Recently been involved in a school project which involves filming. Of course I was quite enthusiastic about it as it was, after all, my first time filming a long video seriously.

But everything had to be worked out: script, shot list, props, set. Everything. Even the music had to be original.

Well everyone (team of 10+) seemed to be enthusiastic at the beginning. We were all talking about some fantasy ideas, of course some were constructive. But in just less than a week discussions started to die down. Next thing the script was delayed for weeks, which delays the rest of everything.

Then some of my closest friends started turning down on all the ideas we had before. Everything seemed to be collapsing anytime.

Why is a team of 15 required? To work together, of course. But you can't expect a "team" of 15 when in fact only a few were involved actively.

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Just how hard is it to stay dedicated?

I find it easy personally. Maybe that's why I get disappointed when other's aren't. But I do believe that when you get involved in something, you stay active in it, if not more active than you were.

On a forum I have been dreaming to be a moderator, and only after 2 years of waiting was I appointed to be one. If I had quit the forum some time earlier, there would be no way for me to be part of the moderation.

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And as many who read this may know, I am involved in the school's Timing Squad, one of the upholders of the school spirit. Last weekend, under showers and cold weather, we went to a sports ground with completely no timing facilities situated on a hill, facing the South China Sea directly. It was windy, rainy and cold. Everyone was basically shivering.

No one complained. Even when they used a real gun to start the competition (yes there is fire), no one ever left their positions. One of my friend stayed to his post until he was really sick and had a vomit just right next to the timer's stand.

That is dedication.

A challenge I have been waiting for 2 years...

...well not exactly 2 years, but 1 year and 9 months. Close enough, anyways.

If you are not really active on the internet world it wouldn't be really anything "challenging".

But I have wanted this "job" for a long time, despite being voluntary, in a worldwide reknown social-gaming company: EA / Playfish.

Yes, a Playfish moderator. Something I have wanted to be for 2 years. 2 years ago I joined this forum and applied for a moderator position and failed. 2 years later I have finally gotten my dream actualized.

I have always wanted to be a recognized helper. I have volunteered on ForumUp.CN until it closed, and then RestaurantCityForum.com as a Moderator and currently Administrator. Finally, now, I'm a Playfish moderator.

It has only been a week but I find myself getting along with the job pretty quickly. Indeed it gave some pressure for myself, but that provoked me to work better and aim to provide accurate information to fellow gamers.

Also knowing my 2 years of effort have not been wasted, feels really great. For the past 2 years I have also been posting on that forum a lot (until before I was appointed as a moderator I went quiet for a while), mostly answering questions.

A bi-product that came with it is that I kept on promoting the forum to every gamer in my social circle, hoping to attract more people into the forum. That pulls users and the company together, I guess.

Another thing that came along was a number of foreign friends. Meeting friends online has never been easy, as you never know whether the person on the opposite end is providing accurate information. But seeing a team of talented moderators, from the looks they wouldn't be "acting" or being false - we put trust to each other in the team, anyway. So meeting some really great friends have also been a pleasure.

Yes, indeed: knowing your existence makes a difference, makes you happy, just like what I have posted after knowing being appointed as a moderator.

"I thought no one cares about my existence, thank you. You proved me wrong. (':"




Perhaps this changed myself too. As I was writing this blog post, I felt that the style is so different from what it was. No more ranting, unhappiness, but all the recognition, the joy, the happiness - the emotions from deep down inside has changed totally.