2 weeks since I have updated my blog. Felt pretty tired. Every day after school the routine is basically the same - homework, revision, practice piano, sleep. Occasionally talking on the phone, perhaps.
I have quite a lot to share about what happened in these 2 weeks, but I guess I have so many to share that I forgot most of them already.
One thing I do remember, though, is I need to write another continued passage on the earlier blog posts "Re: Missing Friends..." and "Missing Friends...".
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So it is term break in the UK and some of my friends, or at least I consider them as friends, came back to Hong Kong. For some unknown reason every time they come back it seems I am already occupied by another event, resulting to miss the rare gathering.
Once I actually saw the left-to-UK friend walking with my (and his) other besties. The first thing that flashed through my mind was, "Why didn't they invite me?" The answer, which came just one millisecond after the question, was, "I've always been the outsider."
That is no weird answer to me. But why am I the outsider? Am I out of trend? Or what? I just have no idea. Perhaps it is that I never ask what is going to happen and waiting for opportunities to come. But, recalling the previous month, I do have tried to get in contact with them via Facebook.
I told my best friend who happened to be one of those hanging out with one of the left-to-UK friends about what I mentioned above. His first response was "Do you have to be like that (pessimistic)?" Now, don't get me wrong, I never wanted to be. I am used to be the outsider anyway.
So... busy life... result is to miss all my friends. I don't want that to happen honestly. I treasure every moment with a friend but for some unknown reason it seems my fate wants me to be alone all the time.
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