It's easier to say than to do.

My goodness. Three weeks of not updating the blog - that's quite a long time.

I have been focusing on that "big" drama project lately and the routine every day is the same: wake up, drama, more drama, eat, drama, sleep. And facing 10+ people's voice and opinions are never easy, and it is basically impossible to listen to all of them. Well, no one understands that anyway.

And in every group there has to be a few people who gives very harsh and strong comments. And, boy, how much pressure that puts on me. Some people just keep on emphasizing how bad my work is and sometimes I just really feel depressed. But oh well that's the world - there is always someone who is unhappy with things.

What seem to depress me most is with people who keep on instructing me what to do but not how to do. I mean, of course I know what to do! I just need to know how to do it. Saying things are always easy, but bringing them to actual practice is never.

Someone told me that the project should be 100% serious, and when that day we were going to a filming location this person decided to stop by at a drinks shop and spent 5 minutes just to buy a drink for himself. And later he decides to pull by at a supermarket to buy more drinks. I was originally really happy we could be half an hour early but we ended up half an hour later than planned.

Boy, oh boy, what pressure it is, staying with people around me talking and talking like they know everything.