Thursday, 19 December 2013

Counting my blessings

Christmas is really a great time of the year to just sit down and look back at everything I've gone through. I guess the number of blog post suggests that this year I have been through some ups and downs, but most of the time it is just filled with homework and assessments.

Nonetheless, throughout all the troubles, I am thankful more than anything.

I remember when writing my previous blog post, I was in a terribly bad mood and soon after it was published I've got messages from many friends asking if things are going alright or needed their prayers. I couldn't be more blessed for all my friend's support. And indeed they were very helpful for the situation. After days friends still kept on asking me if things went well and, well, even though it is not completely resolved, I must say I am learning to accept the situation and my friends are all very supportive in helping me go through this process.

So, to those whom I owe a thank you, here is a big thank you to you all.

A few days ago I was writing my Christmas cards to my friends. This year was a record high number of cards and I had to recycle some of the old cards because I eventually ran out of cards to write on. But this is really a great reminder for myself that within this year I've met a lot more new and great friends and brothers and sisters. Yes, there are ups and downs and some frustrations, but every fall strengthens our bonds together. I just cannot say enough how thankful I am for all of you.

(I must also say, there are just so many people I can't possibly write cards for every single friend so please don't feel disappointed if you didn't get a card from me.)

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Recently I went to University of Cambridge for my interview. Going to such a prestigious school of course made me nervous. I still remember that day during church fellowship I shared the situation with my tutor, and we sat down together and prayed. As soon as I sat down and closed my eyes, tears started dropping and I couldn't be more thankful for the prayer - I was not exactly nervous, but I was moved knowing that I had the support of my tutors and friends. And of course shortly after the prayer I got many messages in support and - honestly - I can feel it.

And perhaps that's why the Instagram post I made ended with "Here in the power of Christ I stand", and that song echoed in me and was the only song I played in my room in Cambridge in preparation for the interview.

Many asked me how the interview went. My answer would always be "okay" - not because I am certain that I will get in, but because I know that I have done my best and that's all I could afford to do.

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Tons of emotions are rising up as I am thinking of what to write. Lots of images, flashbacks, dialogues, messages... It is hard to organize them all at one go. Hope this post wasn't too messy to read.

Anyway, if I had to sum up 2013, apart from all the stress, it is a huge thank you for all the support that I have got from you. Thank you for all your messages, prayers, and to some of you whom I had offended, your understandings. I certainly hope to have been of support to you as well. :)

Looking into 2014, it would most likely be what I call a reshuffle. Environment changes will definitely lead to changes in relationships and everything: even at school social groups are quickly changing and evolving. And perhaps with all this going on I might have to revisit my blog more often - though I hope it would be more of these positive posts.

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Last but not least more housekeeping to do. The main page http://felex.2myweb.net/ has been updated with some new layouts. Sorry for all my friends who really liked the "bio" page. It had to go. I know someone out there has a copy of it for your enjoyment anyways. ;)

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