11 days of torture finally passed. I sat down with my friends, chatting and talking about the exams. There was nothing to worry about for now - at least we're still far away from our next exam.
But then as usual, when final exams passed a wave of holidays will approach. And when these 2 months of holidays approach it's usually bored to death. So before hand I have asked some friends if they wanted to visit my home, or if I could visit their home.
Originally planned was my friend to visit my home and we'd just sit back, chill, chat, or play Wii... it all seemed very relaxing and fantastic...
Too fantastic to be real.
Sometimes people are always bounded by parents, uncontrollable factors, history... and perhaps I am pretty glad I am mostly free of these - at least I try to keep my schedules as flexible as possible. But not everybody's schedules are flexible, and I am not blaming anyone for that.
But what makes me sad is that I'd have another bored day at home. I have always dreamed of strolling along the beach with a friend or two, or perhaps just having chats with friends at a home completely relaxed and free of academic pressure. But this has still remained a dream.
And what comes along with the boredom is getting worried about broken friendships and relationships or relationships of friends or any other pessimistic thoughts. (The classic example would be to check this blog's history - August '10)
So, indeed, the original joy that comes along when you think you're "liberated" in fact comes along with more boredom and depression.
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