Wow. Haven't updated my blog for more than a month. And whenever I don't update my blog means either of these: I'm too busy or I'm too happy.
I guess it's the latter. Well, both.
But today as I was listening to some old songs (B.o.B. - Airplanes), which reminded me of my old stuff, reminded me of my previous years, and this blog.
Looking back at the previous school year, I guess this blog can tell a lot. Pretty often I feel betrayed, unhappy, annoyed, insulted, perhaps "unlucky", but when things come to an end and whatever has to happen has happened, I stop and look back: at least I've become a happier person.
One friend (who has been mentioned in this blog for a few times already, under a negative light, for once not) reminded me of this especially. He told me how pessimistic I used to be and whenever I was bullied I'd pull up all my emotions and make a note on Facebook and tag half of the world and say this and that and how sad I was and how I was treated and lecturing and much more. But this year, I guess things have changed. At least it's not every time I get mistreated I'd write something, but rather I have learnt to keep somethings inside the heart and perhaps only release it at one go anonymously (or so I think). And with this I suppose I have learnt to get along way better than I used to be.
On the right of my blog it says "I'm (trying to be) an optimist (in front of people)". I guess now I can in fact remove those bracketed words. Once I was telling another friend some thoughts from deep inside my heart and his comment was, "well, that's optimistic".
I guess when I try to hide my feelings in this blog and try to be positive in front of people, it changed myself into a more positive person, not only in front of people but wholeheartedly.
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